the following blog is going to have some strong content of real facts about how much some people "respect" those who are not with us anymore as well as info from my past. im also venting some stuff by writting because im absolutelly mad so, i apologize in advance for my following vocabulary.


years ago, when i was 7 years old i suffered the lost of my grandparents and my father. after such a thing happened, i turned into an outcast thanks to my ever loving bitch of a mother. my uncle gave me a job to sustain myself and its the tiring job im always complaining about but its the only thing i have to obtain my own roof and food, although it has one more purpose.
some of you are too young to even wonder about something like this but, do you know what happens when you bury someone? you have tp pay 4 different things to the graveyard.
1- the spot ; 2- the gravestone ; 3- the coffin ; 4- annual payment to keep them there.
they have a record of all the payments done. my lack of humour and my present anger is due to a problem some son of bitch committed last year.
my uncle and i take turns to pay this annual thing, last was my uncles turn, this year is mine to pay but, apparently they have no records of my uncle paying on 2012 which he did because i went with him that day. thing is, since the payment isnt on the list, they now want to throw my fathers body, my grandmothers and grandfathers body as well to a channel, a hidden area that exists in all graveyards thats not visible to the public, where they dump the remains of the people whose famillies didnt pay.
yes, this is all true, if you dont pay, the people you love will be thrown like trash just to have an empty spot for another familly to fill, WHAT THE FREAKING FUCK IS THIS FUCKING SHIT!!?
i found myself arguing at night, not too long ago, with a stupid dumbass from the graveyard in which my familly is buried, whose only dialogue was "we have been warning you with letters that your payment from last year wasnt in the records". that being said, i havent recieved a damn letter, never, not me, not my uncle and we also havent moved from one place to another, which means that a comment implying change of residence is out of question. i was begging on my stupid knees, telling this guy that im even willing to pay a second time for last years unrecorded payment but this lowlife woudltn even listen!! they are going to have their bodies removed in 2 days and dumped just like that, with not a single feeling of remorse in their heartless chests, but what angers me the most is that they are treating them like they are objects, mere things that are just lying there and im asking myself, how can it be that a soulless freak is the one in charge of the place i trusted, selected as their place of rest? i cant even start wondering when in all of this worlds life did humans become such greedy and detestable beings.
i swear that i cant think clear right now, i want to cry, hate, get angry, even if i have to sleep in the graveyard surrounded by rats, tombstones and the worst kinds of humans in this world, ill make sure that non of them ever lays a fucking finger in my familly. once this is all over ill be changing them to another place, maybe smaller but those who work there know how to hold respect for those who have lived and are still cherished.
its hard to stay sane and kind when societies are mindless and heart lacking, how can you put someone so apathetic and as expresive as a wall to be the guard of such a place... that i will never understand and im willing to hit straight in the face whoever dares to defend such people. this time im really beyond my limit.